October 03, 2007

It never rains but it pours

Thank you all firswtly for the wonderful comments and emails I do appreciate it.
Now to the title,
Firstly, and minor when you hear the rest, I had done over 16 inches on my scarf for the ISE. I'm doing the Iris shawl and it looked wonderful, just wonderful. All lacey and even unblocked looked stunning. Then last night we stayed over at my daughters to babysit. Listening to the 2 boys and Mr Mog playing a quiz, I got sidetraCKED and I made a mistake:( Not only that but because I'd been going well no lifelines. I know, I know don't shout at me I'll put them in now. Now? Yes I tinked but with all the yarn overs got in a worse mess so frogged it all:( every single hard worked inch of it, all frogged.
I'll start again I promise and I will use lifelines.
But reason for making mistakes wasn't only the quiz, my eldest nephew(a year older than my son) hung himself:( My daughter phoned to tell me. He was only 35, just had a baby a couple of days ago, his third child. The other two are a few years older. Why? I knew he had been depressed 3 years ago but it seemed to lift a little.
I feel so sad, so overwhelmed by it all.
In the scheme of things the knitting isn't anything after all.
Mr Mog started his hormone treatment today, fingers crossed it will help
this little moggie feels overwhelmed by events, I'm wanting to retreat into my cave and I can't I have to be strong.

11 comments:

KnitMoka said...

Many wishes of love and light sent to you, mr. mog and your extended family. A candle is lit in my corner of the world for physical healing for your sweetie.

aniexma said...

So sorry to hear of the loss in your family. We've had two family members hang themselves in the last ten years. It's always shocking, but time does help the pain fade a little bit.

maylin said...

Oh Amber, you are having such a hard time at the moment. I wish I could give you a real hug not just a virtual one.

Marianne said...

Oh, honey, I am so sorry... that news hit me like a ton of bricks in that I've been thinking strongly of a good friend who took his life a few years ago about this time of year and now to read of your nephew...
Keeping you and Mr.Mogs close and sending soothing, healing thoughts your way...

mehitabel said...

Ah, Amber, my heart goes out to you! From someone who's been there, please know: you will find the strength you need. Even if you have to take it a few minutes at a time, you can do it. Hug your husband, hug your kids, the grandkids, and anyone who will hug you back. I wish I could do more than a cyber hug for you! (We were in the middle of my husband's cancer treatments when we got word that our oldest son had died of a heart attack in his sleep. 3000 miles away from us!)

Annette said...

That is such sad news, my thoughts and prayers are with your family. I have some idea of what you are going through as similar devastating deaths have occurred in our family

Rosie said...

Oh no. How very sad. Sending you warm thoughts and cyber hugs.

Gill said...

You're having a real monsoon! Our good wishes and positive energies for you all at this time.

Spinayarn said...

The others have said it all. Hugs and comfort to you and Mr Mogs. So sad for you all......

BabyLongLegs said...

Amber....I am so sorry to hear about your great loss :(
My heart goes out to you and Mr Mog, and to his family and his babies.
What a tragic thing to have happened.
Thinking of you
Love
Sarah xXx

Dez Crawford said...

That is a huge load for you to bear all at once. I wish I could be there in person for you, but for now, know that strength and healing thoughts are coming your way. .