January 29, 2008
3rd annual Brigid in Cyberspace poetry reading, cancer and friends+ yarn arrives.
On imbolc this year I'll be participating once more in the annual Brigid in cyberspace poetry reading
has all the details on her blog. I've done this the past 2 years and always love reading everyones poetry. Even if you don't want to post one it is fun to read all the ones that people across the world have posted. I found some wonderful ones I'd never heard of and quite a lot that I already counted favourites.
I was thinking today about cancer, specifically Mr Mog's cancer and the effect it has had on our social life. For whatever reasons lots of our friends don't seem to be comfortable with it. By that I mean they are keeping away, they don't even phone. Now I know one person has recently lost a member of his family and maybe its too close to home. I don't know. But so many of our friends, especially the pagan ones have kept away. Its rather hurtful and upsetting for both Mr Mog and I.
Why am I specifying the pagan ones specifically? Well for me paganism, or the belief I have means I'm more aware of the feelings of others and try as much as I can to be there for people.
In sympathy with them if you will. I am not explaining my self too well am I?
There have been good moments. We have a few friends who are there for us all the time. Not in your pocket type of being there, but they ring, they call round as normal and I think that is what we want, some normality. It feels as if we have the plague, keep away unclean and it is a pity. We are struggling with the cancer lately, both depressed and low. The weather doesn't help either. Today was all rain. I'm not sleeping and I know Mr Mog isn't, we don't talk enough about it. He is quite a private person in some ways and not as talkative as I am. I usually tend to say too much, this comes from being kept under the thumb in previous relationships. With Mr Mog I was always able to say what I wanted, sometimes too much:)
On this subject I can't properly. I seem to pussyfoot around and maybe I need to go on the beach and scream, get rid of the tension not feel as awakward as I am.
Phew, what a mouthful.
I think really I'm saying that if you have family or friends with cancer, be yourself around them, don't stay away. They are still the same person, the cancer doesn't change that.
On a more cheery note , see the picture at the top of the post? It arrived today from Santa Clara in CA, from Hendrickson it says on the address label. I don't know who you are but thank you very much for this:)
I hope to have another finished pair of socks to show tomorrow:)
Excuse the dismals, I'll be cheerier tomorrow.