Cancer Update

It has been a while but haven't felt like posting much.not a lot to report, Mr Mog is getting more and more tired each day and losing weight again. This heat doesn't help either when you have to wear a full back brace and a layer of clothing underneath all the time you are up and about, plus he doesn't like it too hot at the best of times. There may be the possibility of a new drug trial. Lots of screening beforehand and he may not be a suitable candidate but hey it's a little more hope. It "may " make him feel a little better and it "may " extend his life but obviously they can't say for certain. It doesn't matter really it's a little more hope and that's never a bad thing.
Today Mr Mog made the decision that he wasn't well enough for the birthday trip to the Isle of Man . He is worried about worsening while away from hospice, oncology and doctors and it's a good allbeit sad decision. There would be no point having a few days away if he worried all the time or me. I must admit I wasn't sure that he would be well enough but no one could say except himself.
We haven't done an awful lot but did fit in an overnight trip to Liverpool  which we both enjoyed.
There has been knitting and spinning going on here and I have been doing a little more playing in my craft room.

A box I altered

The garden is looking particularly lush this year

Love all the tangles of green

Even if the nasturtium flowers are shy.

And we never add fertiliser

No need

This months full moon was particularly spectacular

And lots of colour

This shawl was gifted before I had even finished it, a friend at Woolfest fell in love with it 

So as soon as it was off the needles and blocked it was winging its way to her.

Then I started one in my handspun

P.s. Blue Witch the golden  Lammas shawl  is Pamuya pattern on Ravelry and the stitch is called Wave. 

So how's things with you?

Here and now

In the here and now life goes on as go on it must.

What have we done? Let me think. 

We had a week in a lodge in the Lake District and the weather was glorious every day.

 

We didn't do lots each day as Mr Mog tires easily but we went to Carlisle and then the model railway shop in Wigton before heading back to the lodge.

One day we visited Mr Mogs mother although she didn't know us sadly:( it was very sad and There were tears shed but at least Mr Mog got to see her. She is still with us and at 97 that's not a bad thing.

We spun a little each day, and yes I do have a new spinning wheel. A Kiwi 2 that I have decorated. I found I missed my spinning dreadfully as its a perfect meditation tool and thought that if I just did a little each day it may be ok. Touch wood so far so good.

We celebrated the Solstice moon with tremendous views of moon and hills and spent lots of enjoyable hours watching the clouds chase across the sky.

We listened to owls and watched bats swooping low across the balcony as the sun went down.

We spent almost 2 days at Woolfest and that was the highlight of the holiday for us both. Catching up with all our many friends, most of whom we hadn't seen since last Woolfest due to being unable to go to Wonderwool in April. 

There were lots of laughs and quite a few tears, mostly as this Woolfest may be the last we spend together. 

One of the highlights for me was finally meeting up with a blogger friend from over the Border NewRoobeedoo

That caused more tears to flow. I never thought we would get to meet, just shows you. Roo was exactly as I thought she would be and I look forward to meeting up again soon.

Woolfest is always inspiring and this years show  was as good as ever.

For me it's always been about catching up with friends, the buying opportunities come second to it. I did buy some fabulous merino and Zwarbles fibre from John Arbon as I couldn't resist the softness or the colour.

When we returned home I did some more decluttering and filled a large tub with the contents of my incense cupboard. Over 45 years of incense making ingredients. We don't make incense now, or do incense making workshops and it's over 12 months since I made any. I tend to use oils in my diffuser instead.

I also cleared out most of my essential oils apart from a first aid kits worth and my diffuser ones. The oils went to my friend who does aromatherapy and massage. She used two of them on me at that weeks massage:)

The incense ingredients went to a pagan friend this last weekend when we attended Pagancon . First time I've been for a few years and there were some quite interesting talks and workshops  we took a friend of ours who is exploring his beliefs and is interested in furthering his pagan faith. Mr Mog went for the first half of day then I dropped him at our friends and I went back for a couple of hours. I didn't stay for the evening which was a shame as Damh the Bard and Cernunnos rising were playing. But I have CDs of both so that's ok. George Nicholas from Cernunnos rising did a fabulous very large painting and talk about the charity he works with Art for their sake. I have mentioned them to the hospice that Mr Mog goes to as they are always looking for new projects.

Today I had to make an emergency appointment with the palliative pain clinic as Mr Mogs pain was worse. They actually fit him in this afternoon and the consultant has upped one of his drugs. I have also to arrange a series  of blood tests for him. Oh and I made an appointment for hospital for later this week to have the back brace remoulded as that may help. Mr Mog has lost some more weight and is just over 10stone now. This also makes the brace more uncomfortable for him as its loose.

Think that brings us up to date. To be honest I am just trying to enjoy each day we have. After all that's all everyone has isn't it? The here and now.

There has been some knitting . I finished yet another shawl in a perfect colour for Lammas.